life

Ok, just finally figured out the correct fingering for "there goes my life" by Kenny Chesney and it made the song so much easier to play. Then, I started singing it a bit to get my mind off of the last blog and for a bit of a gig some buddies and I have in a month or so. There was a point in there where I just pictured my little Laila climbing up our open staircase in the middle of the house and me looking up and seeing her doing that on her own and I just had this moment where I felt the consuming love that I have for her. At the same time that I can't wait until she's saying "daddy," I realize that it will mean that some of my time with her is already gone. I can't wait to make the most of every moment that I have with her. I hope I do make the most of every moment. I pray (literally) that I will be that Dad who pushes through the tough stuff and loves her with every bit of my soul. I pray that I will teach her the important stuff, the stuff that matters. I pray that I will be the one that she looks to for guidance, for advice, for encouragement, for real and transparent love. I pray that my walk with Jesus will be such that she can see it and want to follow in the same way. God, make me that man.