to begin

i woke up this morning to my son's inarticulate mumblings coming through the monitor beside my warm bed and immediately knew something was up...he never wakes up until around 8 and it was only 6. upon bringing him something to drink and lying down beside him i realized that his forehead was burning up and that my wife or i would have to stay home and care for the kids today. she's a wonderful mom and really wanted to stay home with him for the day, so she called off today and is home with him. 2 hours later they cancelled her mobile today and she wouldn't have had to work anyway, but since she called in, she has to use her PTO instead of getting cancellation pay.

strange things happen sometimes. it always happens on days like today, and we don't get to know why. that just doesn't seem fair.

found myself saying these things to myself today, and then was snapped back to reality as i heard reports of people losing their jobs around the country and people who are scrambling to make ends meet in this economy. missing out on a day of cancellation pay seems pretty tiny, although it seemed large earlier today.

we need perspective. living in a world that is broken should make me vitally aware that as a follower of jesus i may have an impact for good in all of this but i have to keep my eyes open to it. it's hard to keep the eyes open to the things that i should be seeing and doing when my focus is caught on what has affected my little world today.

i'm going to try to look at the bigger picture and see my own as a bit smaller.